Do you ever watch the show back after the episodes come out and does it ever change your perspective on how things go down with the crew?
It used to be wild. There used to be fights all the time, every day, but it's not like that anymore. We've grown a lot, and that's good. Also, I'm like, "Wow, I used to be skinny."
Do you think you're going to watch Season 10 as it's coming out?
Of course. It's my show. I'm going to watch it and support.
A lot of people don't like watching themselves. But I like that you do.
You know what, you're right. Let's not even. The only reason why I don't watch is because I feel a little insecure. After the baby, I gained so much weight. I'm like, "Ugh." I feel insecure watching it. Sometimes, I do stupid stuff. That's out there for everybody to see. I do not [need] a reminder of how stupid I am sometimes.
You're being real. That's the point of the show, right?
I'm being too real, and that's uncomfortable to watch. Let's be honest. That's the only reason. I'm embarrassed of myself. "Why am I like that? Ugh."
I think your fans are going to love it.
"Why did I say that? Why did I have an argument?" Ugh, let's not." And then, people want to come judge me. "Yeah, you're stupid." I know.
Do you go on Twitter and social media and then say, "I know I would've changed that or I would've said something different."
Sometimes, but sometimes I'm like, "I talk s***, whatever."
Are you getting more into the art world as you get settled and get more of a following?
Like I said, I was a fine art artist first and then became a tattoo artist because I was broke and I needed money. It's so ironic that the reason why I started tattooing is to support my painting stuff, but as soon as I started making money, I did not have time to paint. The reason why I started tattooing was to support my art.
I'm trying to go back to paint, because I always paint. I always sketch stuff, but now, I want to take it more seriously like I used to, because it makes me happy. Sometimes, I'm really not good at expressing myself with my mouth, because I'm so used to expressing my feelings, everything that I'm going through with my hand, through art. I want to do that again.
Can we look forward to a show in your future, or will you be sharing some of your work with fans online or anything like that?
Yes. Soon.
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